Had 4 days off,going back to work,
Hope noone there acts like a jerk.
Had a bunch of stuff to do,so took some time off,
Man,it just doesnt seem like it was enuff.
Went to see a Dr.,a judge and a friend,
Hope to get some answers,put this "prob" to an end.
Doc says I got a prob in my head,
says it one reason why I fight going to bed
Got me on pills, I started last night,
Going to bed,there was no fight.
Felt doped up like an old hippie,
Almost to the point of going whoopie!!
As I end this dity,
aint it a pity..
That the old Aaron is about to desolve,
But hey..but a big problem for me is about to resolve.. [img]graemlins/thumb.gif[/img]

for those wondering... go here... This is what my Dr. beleives to be the problem,but need to do further tests and studies first before being 100% on it...

http://www.psychiatry24x7.com/bgdisp...profbackbip015

[ December 18, 2003, 09:43 AM: Message edited by: 8TrackBoy ]

 

Pills.. un huh!

 

was I supposed to put some sort of rap beat to that or something.

 

LOL....that would be sweet!! [img]graemlins/thumb.gif[/img]

Every so ofetn,I get in a mood where I start writing stuff like that....

I have somewhere an entire 3 ring binder of stuff I wrote years..pages upon pages...

If I can find it,maybe I will post a couple for laughs...

 

8Track has Bipolar? Hope you can keep it in control. It's not the worst of disorders and can be overcome.

Currently I'm taking pills for MOSFET disorder that I apparently have. I clip a bit more softly than bipolar when run hard, but I'll be ok.

 

Well....its something I have been fighting off and on for years...it comes and goes...comes and goes...I'm fine and good for monthes on end(for the most part)then out of nowhere,I go into these crazy mood swings...I can be laughing my *** off,having a great time,then out of nowhere I need to go and bawl my eyes out,then 20 mins later,I'm good again.I sometimes get these swings where I yell at people for no reason at all..its crazy.Then like it appeared,it fades out for monthes,weeks,days...No ryhme or reason to it..

I've been hit as of late with another round of it..and this is the last straw....I decided to get help...

You know how hard it is to find help for somthing like this? I have made I dont know how many phone calls...numerous mental health boards....clinics...etc....been through councelling twice in the last 2 weeks..Finally got into see this Dr and so far I think we are making some headway..but time will tell..

Want to hear something shocking?

I hit a major low last week,so I got the nerve to call the crisis line.I told this woman on the phone..and I quote.."Yes..I am having suicidle thoughts...I dont think I will try anything,but just the fact that I'm having the thoughts,I cant promise anything...".After numerous questions and whatnot,heres her thoughts..."Do you drink milk?Why not go have warm cup of milk and take a warm bath to try and calm down."Can you believe that?? I have already spoke with more than one person who runs this help line and the matter has been looked after...so dont go freakin out on anyone...

Anyway,thanks for the words of support,but please dont think I'm looking for sympathy...just want people to maybe understand a little better(as I am too) why I have done/said some of the things I did/do...

 

T8T - good luck, admitting to the problem is the first step to getting it solved..

Dukk knows all!! I'm starting to wonder if he has spies everywhere.. next thing you know he'll be telling me where I work and what I do [img]tongue.gif[/img]